This is the question which I am really sick of answering. They ask it everywhere: interviews, orkut, interesting women. So, I thought, lets finally try to answer this with the best honesty. I wont delve upon any acquired things like educational interests, even though I like the freedom of educational places. Not many people would agree with me, and I dont even try to do that. I will start from outside and go inside from there.
I have a body of a Man. About it, all of them are just regular masculine characterstics, with the exception of long hairs. I like masculine appearance, so I support beard and moustache, not stylish just bushy. The reason of this is may be to earn respect in academia, you need it :D. Plus, it gives an artistic/philosophical appearance, which to me is always welcome.
My heart, something which is very dear to me. It is pure and absolute feminine. I dont feel even a lil shame in this, because thats what I am. It is sensitive, warm and shy. One of my female friend had commented: I am her best budd, I guess the reason is because my heart can get in sync with most of the women pretty easily. Also, some of my interests like reading, talking, theaters and arts, are feminine (I dont mean that men dont have these interests, but I believe its more popular in women). But, I dont like shopping most of times, so there are differences.
My Mind, is sometimes a wild horse. It believes in rebellion, most of the times it is he who controls me, even though I want it to be otherway round. This is specially true, when I am weeded or some other similar influence. Most of times, I cant focus on things, which I should. My greatest desire is to tame it and give it to my soul. There are some known ways of doing it, one I know is YOGA, which is in my todo list. I think I dont know my mind, its deceptive to me and it is destabilizingly fickle.
My Soul, is I believe sincere to some limit but is clownish eventually. Its like most of the times, it is commited for any cause, but in the end, it cracks and it becomes a thing to laugh for watchers. So, it tries hard but ends being a object of mockery.
I am not sure, if it is a nice or absolutely true description, but I guess it is interesting atleast. It is interesting to dissect yourself into these four things and do some analysis. Any Comments ?
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
The Art of Spending Time
Summer has started, and the university is off. I am left with mediocre gpa (which I dont care that much) and lot of time. I used to get elated by the idea of free time, and now when I am into it, it doesnt feels that pleasant. I am not finding the planned things interesting enough. So, I am left with thinking about how to spend the time. I dont beleive in passing time by any activity, cause its like spending money for the sake of spending it, time is money in some terms.
So, lets not pass time, rather lets spend time. Dont do any charity by passing it, no reward will forgive us for wasting the dawn, lets talk about spending it. And you know, if you consider, time as money then you will see there is kind of perfect socialism in this world, in the sense most of us have same amount of it, except the fact that thousands of innocents get killed everywhere. So, it doesnt matters how much money or any other thing you have, it also doesnt matters, how much time you have cause in most of the cases, it is not in our hands. So, what is in our hands, the art of spending it. I am not an expert at it, if I was, I wont be bullshitting like this, nor are you cause you are reading this.
So, what to do? My experience tells me that my most usefully spend times are those which I can cherish long after that. You know, sometimes, when we get so engrossed in things, that we cant feel the joy of it at the time of doing it, we are kind of inside a sphere. We cant feel anything which is outside. But when we have done that and we are out, we cant think of anything but that thing. Doing those things, most of the times is what I call Art of Spending Time. My these things are: Playing with Balls like Football and other ball games ;-); reading books, strange faces and obviously BullShitting.
So, lets not pass time, rather lets spend time. Dont do any charity by passing it, no reward will forgive us for wasting the dawn, lets talk about spending it. And you know, if you consider, time as money then you will see there is kind of perfect socialism in this world, in the sense most of us have same amount of it, except the fact that thousands of innocents get killed everywhere. So, it doesnt matters how much money or any other thing you have, it also doesnt matters, how much time you have cause in most of the cases, it is not in our hands. So, what is in our hands, the art of spending it. I am not an expert at it, if I was, I wont be bullshitting like this, nor are you cause you are reading this.
So, what to do? My experience tells me that my most usefully spend times are those which I can cherish long after that. You know, sometimes, when we get so engrossed in things, that we cant feel the joy of it at the time of doing it, we are kind of inside a sphere. We cant feel anything which is outside. But when we have done that and we are out, we cant think of anything but that thing. Doing those things, most of the times is what I call Art of Spending Time. My these things are: Playing with Balls like Football and other ball games ;-); reading books, strange faces and obviously BullShitting.
Monday, May 01, 2006
What matters finally
Is it the numeber of times you got laid ?
Is it the number of times you got A's ?
Is it the number of times you got bombed ?
Is it whether you had fun today or not ?
Is it the journey or the destination, is an amazing journey worth a dreadful end?
If yes, is the life worth the death ?
Has it something to do with having fun, enjoy, strike a balance ?
But, then does this means dont take risks, dont follow your passions and follow a well known path ?
What are our joys coming from, is there any source or it is just an illusion ?
Why am I writing this crap, I feel sad cause I screwed up an exam today, this means considerable dip in my gpa
does gpa matters, well it might if I have nothing else to show ?
gpa is like cock, just as it is believed that you need high gpa for top universities, same it true if you want some hot woman and you depend on "it" as your sole credibility.
But, you know if you want a good research career or any other career for that matter, you can do without 4/4. And also if you want to make her come, you can do without 7' long. So, the question remains, wot matters finally?
I dont know it is like a mystery because, if it is happiness, then its not in anyones hands. Then if it is power/lust or anything similar, wot about artists who died in anonymity and are now read by everyone. What matters may be is whether you have regrets or not? I dont know I have many.
Is it the number of times you got A's ?
Is it the number of times you got bombed ?
Is it whether you had fun today or not ?
Is it the journey or the destination, is an amazing journey worth a dreadful end?
If yes, is the life worth the death ?
Has it something to do with having fun, enjoy, strike a balance ?
But, then does this means dont take risks, dont follow your passions and follow a well known path ?
What are our joys coming from, is there any source or it is just an illusion ?
Why am I writing this crap, I feel sad cause I screwed up an exam today, this means considerable dip in my gpa
does gpa matters, well it might if I have nothing else to show ?
gpa is like cock, just as it is believed that you need high gpa for top universities, same it true if you want some hot woman and you depend on "it" as your sole credibility.
But, you know if you want a good research career or any other career for that matter, you can do without 4/4. And also if you want to make her come, you can do without 7' long. So, the question remains, wot matters finally?
I dont know it is like a mystery because, if it is happiness, then its not in anyones hands. Then if it is power/lust or anything similar, wot about artists who died in anonymity and are now read by everyone. What matters may be is whether you have regrets or not? I dont know I have many.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Its all about, who has the ball
Its not BALLS, its ball, the Football. It is like a way of life for me, I have seen this sport before many times, but unless you play it, you dont understand its real spirit. And my recent advent into this sport, has really got me. Even though, I dont play well, will be a gross understatement, since each time I cause 2-3 goals for my own team. That really kills me, I keep abusing myself untill the next time I play. Such is the low of this game and hence due to law of averages, its high balances its low.
It took me some time to get into the football frame of mind, it is really fast, its like you are a part of hollywood action movie, there are enemy bullets all around, there is the most treasured thing: the ball, most of the fight goes in who posses it. Yes it is a fight, it is no gentlemen's game, whosoever has the ball rules, no matter how he has it.
Injuries, my dear friend are the part of this game. This is the best part of the trip. I really like it. Each bruise makes you feel that you are alive, each extra effort you make streches a bunch of your nerves. And in the process, you realise you have so many nerves and so much of blood running inside you. This is really invigorating, welcome to the real world.
I am still struggling so that my team mates can count me as a useful member, but I am enjoying each moment of playing this game and then cherishing each moment of it afterwards.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Times of India: A Bollywood Blockbuster
A typical Bollywood Project: It has everything: an enticing women in skimpy clothes. A social reformer in a struggling state for a social cause. A good looking chap selling some banks products. And a tragic news mentioning some people have died just like that.
All of this might seem entertaining to us because being the audience of Masala Movies, we develop the taste for such spice. But, I am not sure whether the people who were somehow involved in one of these tragic news feel the same. I dont know whether the placement of the news and ads in this way is coincidental or is it a well thought way attracting more viewers. Please if you cannot sypathise with those people, dont make fun of them atleast.
It can be argued that a newspaper has to tell all the stories and their placement is according to their importance, but I dont buy it because I dont think that Wills Fashion Week and any commercial advertisement is of even seemingly same importance. TOI should put some sense in its revenue generating machine. It hurts.
I have been visiting nytimes.com and bbc.co.uk occasionally and I dont find such nonsense there, then what capitalist reason TOI has thought which these guys couldnt. This is the time when lot of things in India seem to change and in the hope of goodness, I hope TOI will be a part of it.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
just got deceived
This is pompeii, one of the oldest towns, supposed to be oldest roman city. I see remnants of a township: a broken amphitheatre, pieces of walls some half, some less than that. Completely deserted, but each stone is telling a story. Story of a prostitute, story of a common man, its like I have gone centuries back and I hear music: pink floyd playing echoes. The music is maddening and the surroundings are making the things worse, each guitar streak is like a dose of marijuana. I am taking pictures, the camera of which I was proud of seems to be so inefficient to capture what my eyes are perceiving. We are roaming in the streets and I see a active volcano with fumes coming out. I might be facing death but in the process am feeling alive again after few months. This feeling is invigorating. My friend calls and says we gotta move, as always time is less but they say life is long, I dont know how. We go back, we have to reach rome.
Its rome, it has the colloseum, it has museums, it has church, it has everything, I dont know why dont lucky people goto rome instead of heaven, its way too charming. With beer glasses on, I am having fun with strange and pretty italian girls. I was not so cool, well this rome, anything is possible, geeks becoming flying guys.
I wake up next to her, she has the most pretty smile, I wish to get dissolved in her. It is the highest feeling and it is at the highest place.
And the professor says: "Now we take a small break". I realise I am still in the classroom but I feel as if I have just come back, may be a part of me is still there. Is it possible that two people are present at two different places? i dont know but its definitely not a dream because I still feel inside it. May be my subconscious has flown that place leaving the rest of me here. Italy trip cannot get cheaper than this, i suppose !!
Sometimes you are so excited about anything that even before that happens, you can see it happening pretty close to reality.
Its rome, it has the colloseum, it has museums, it has church, it has everything, I dont know why dont lucky people goto rome instead of heaven, its way too charming. With beer glasses on, I am having fun with strange and pretty italian girls. I was not so cool, well this rome, anything is possible, geeks becoming flying guys.
I wake up next to her, she has the most pretty smile, I wish to get dissolved in her. It is the highest feeling and it is at the highest place.
And the professor says: "Now we take a small break". I realise I am still in the classroom but I feel as if I have just come back, may be a part of me is still there. Is it possible that two people are present at two different places? i dont know but its definitely not a dream because I still feel inside it. May be my subconscious has flown that place leaving the rest of me here. Italy trip cannot get cheaper than this, i suppose !!
Sometimes you are so excited about anything that even before that happens, you can see it happening pretty close to reality.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
My Struggle with Myself
This is the toughest times of my life when I am struggling against myself. My body and my soul are discordent. What I believe in, I am not acting according to it, there is a broad contradiction in me, and someone who cannot stand anybody else's contradiction has to stand his own. May be it is because I am killing my natural insticts, is it worthwhile doing it? I dont know. But do I want to do it? May be Yes, for something unknown, something which is divine or sacred or cosmic or eternal. The child has to die, and the man has to come out. And this seems to be the correct time for this, things are ready and waiting to welcome him.
Is it good for me, I dont know but I know I want this to happen because the rebillion inside me has to calm down and this seems to be the only plausible state where this can happen. I am amazed by life and how it forces you to change, life is dynamic will be an understatement. Life to me is like a hiking experience, but I want to reach the peak before liberating. I want to expirience the greatest high, possibly the life can give me.
This struggle is like the struggle you have to do when you shift from a less slanting trail to the more one, so it is quite possible that the trail is endless and so is this struggle. But, I am hoping for the next minute of absolute stillness.
Is it good for me, I dont know but I know I want this to happen because the rebillion inside me has to calm down and this seems to be the only plausible state where this can happen. I am amazed by life and how it forces you to change, life is dynamic will be an understatement. Life to me is like a hiking experience, but I want to reach the peak before liberating. I want to expirience the greatest high, possibly the life can give me.
This struggle is like the struggle you have to do when you shift from a less slanting trail to the more one, so it is quite possible that the trail is endless and so is this struggle. But, I am hoping for the next minute of absolute stillness.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Bored from Life
Same old sun, same old people, same old crappy food, same old me, the world seems to have stopped. It seems that people have become machines: bunch of morons. Lets make it little interesting. Lets play with it, change it, turn it upside down.
Lets give the animals a chance to do what they want. These are some of the things they might want to do. Wot if a tiger instead of pouncing on a deer, runs away from him to save his life. Wot if people instead of running for money start running away from it and none of their activites are direced to earn money. Wot if the fireman instead of spreading water on fire, spreads kerosene. What if when it rains, it drops fire instead of water. What if being evil is the virtue and being sacred is a sin. What if hitler is the hero and Gandhi is the villain. What if we take education just for the sake of learning. What if sun doesnt rises tomarrow. What if the only things we do are love, travel and die. What if we know the secret of birth and death. What if we can swim to the moon. What if we can fly on ocean. What if ..
The changed world wont be hell, simply because this world is also not perfect. But that world might be more interesting.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
God Bless America !!
Before coming to America, I had heard of this phrase as little modified, which was: "God Bless you". This really made sense to me since it is always considered good if you wish good for other people. But, things are really different in America: they use this phrase as: "God Bless America" which means "God Bless Me". This sounds funny, it just reveals the American Principals, how much they need god's blessings despite of the fact that theirs is the most prosperous country in the world.
It seems that for Americans, America is the end of the world, I see slogans like: "I dream of drug free America". There is another slogan: "In God we Trust", you can find this at the airports and other prominent places. Again, I am used to a little different version of it: "In God we Fear". But, I guess what fits in America is "In God we trust and In Osama we Fear", its funny atleast.
All this makes me feel, that America really needs God's blessings. Hey God, please bless them with some humanity and reality!!!.
It seems that for Americans, America is the end of the world, I see slogans like: "I dream of drug free America". There is another slogan: "In God we Trust", you can find this at the airports and other prominent places. Again, I am used to a little different version of it: "In God we Fear". But, I guess what fits in America is "In God we trust and In Osama we Fear", its funny atleast.
All this makes me feel, that America really needs God's blessings. Hey God, please bless them with some humanity and reality!!!.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Lets just say ... i was testing the bounds of reality
The movie will begin in 5 minutes ... there is nothing new in it, you have seen it through and through, When you die there should be enough in your life to make a movie on it.
These are jim morrison's words. I am really puzzled after seeing the movie: "The Doors". It just adds to the already present fanaticisim in me.
These are jim morrison's words. I am really puzzled after seeing the movie: "The Doors". It just adds to the already present fanaticisim in me.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Rubarooo ... Roshni hai
Very popular words now when Rang De Basanti has hit the screens. This movie makes you laugh, cry and in the end leaves with you with lot of fire unextinguished. Hats off to the director Rakeysh Om Prakash Mehra who had an the theme which fits perfectly in the contemporaty india and presented in a manner that the indian youth can relate to them reallistically. Its creativity at its helm, no indian youth can go untouched by it, specially Punju people in Delhi ;-).
Aamir Khan is as usual far more than perfect, his punju accent is so real, being myself a punju, I was kept laughing most of times. Not to mention other main characters were equally good and their camaradrie was something you can relate to if you have "real" friends.
Rahman, needless to say about the god of music again delivers a masterpiece. Songs are great and they are perfectly situational and also their presentation makes you fall in love with the music.
Photography like any other aspect of this movie is just perfect. The way camera has been used, the way the revolutionaries have been compared with the film characters is the thing to be seen since that brilliance cant be penned down. One liners in the movie are wonderful and Aamir delivers them in his style with his eye brows raised. The scene could be serious or comedy, this guy's skill is unmatched in delivering perfection.
A fire igniting movie is just in right time when India seems to be rising after a deep sleep of second era of slavery, now the rulers are themselves morally corrupt indians. I just read a news that a bunch of IITians are forming a political party of their own so that they can affect India. It seems a glorified era of patriotism is beginning and it feels great to be a part of it. I think India can do better than just being hub for outsourcing of American Companies both in terms of production and Consumption. But, great thing is that India will find its own identity or may be rediscover it and will not be just another developed country. It seems that India is RISING !!!
Aamir Khan is as usual far more than perfect, his punju accent is so real, being myself a punju, I was kept laughing most of times. Not to mention other main characters were equally good and their camaradrie was something you can relate to if you have "real" friends.
Rahman, needless to say about the god of music again delivers a masterpiece. Songs are great and they are perfectly situational and also their presentation makes you fall in love with the music.
Photography like any other aspect of this movie is just perfect. The way camera has been used, the way the revolutionaries have been compared with the film characters is the thing to be seen since that brilliance cant be penned down. One liners in the movie are wonderful and Aamir delivers them in his style with his eye brows raised. The scene could be serious or comedy, this guy's skill is unmatched in delivering perfection.
A fire igniting movie is just in right time when India seems to be rising after a deep sleep of second era of slavery, now the rulers are themselves morally corrupt indians. I just read a news that a bunch of IITians are forming a political party of their own so that they can affect India. It seems a glorified era of patriotism is beginning and it feels great to be a part of it. I think India can do better than just being hub for outsourcing of American Companies both in terms of production and Consumption. But, great thing is that India will find its own identity or may be rediscover it and will not be just another developed country. It seems that India is RISING !!!
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Mind Games
Mind .... I fear from it ... I love it .. I adore it ... All my pains are attributed to it .. All my pleasures are also dedicated to it but I cant discover it ... I cant live without it .. Still I think I dont know it. Lets take a look inside it ..
All what I see, I aspire, I hate or I love is because my mind dictates me do it. But I think it is a hypocrite .. cause what I loved some years back .. I dont love them anymore .. vice versa also ... Things which were trivial to me before are either magical or most precious to me .. why this is so .. why doesnt it stays on one side of the line always or why it does not reveal everything to me right now ... who is controlling it .. if it is me then why dont I feel it ...
Why it is so that things which used to hurt me, attract me, no more so are alike. Is it going in some direction, then what is the destination and why is it taking so long, or it is moving in a circle, and there is no destination and all this is crap.
How does it learns ... or may be discovers ... it is just the observations or some reasoning goes into it, does the reasoning process requires the observations ... and then develop some hypothesis ... if this is so then which observations are more significant ... how does it knows .. cause this also changes with time ... how do I know whether it is maturing or not ? Am I a slave of it or Can I be a master ..
Is it same in everyone, if so then why is everyone so different .. is the physical location important or it does not matter whether I am enclosed in a dark dungeon or in a green land surrounded by beautiful girls .. will it work better then?
Is it mind, which is bothering me or it is conscious, it is so messed .. I have no answers .. but my quest is on .. so keep checking .. I might have some answers or may be more questions and confusions.
All what I see, I aspire, I hate or I love is because my mind dictates me do it. But I think it is a hypocrite .. cause what I loved some years back .. I dont love them anymore .. vice versa also ... Things which were trivial to me before are either magical or most precious to me .. why this is so .. why doesnt it stays on one side of the line always or why it does not reveal everything to me right now ... who is controlling it .. if it is me then why dont I feel it ...
Why it is so that things which used to hurt me, attract me, no more so are alike. Is it going in some direction, then what is the destination and why is it taking so long, or it is moving in a circle, and there is no destination and all this is crap.
How does it learns ... or may be discovers ... it is just the observations or some reasoning goes into it, does the reasoning process requires the observations ... and then develop some hypothesis ... if this is so then which observations are more significant ... how does it knows .. cause this also changes with time ... how do I know whether it is maturing or not ? Am I a slave of it or Can I be a master ..
Is it same in everyone, if so then why is everyone so different .. is the physical location important or it does not matter whether I am enclosed in a dark dungeon or in a green land surrounded by beautiful girls .. will it work better then?
Is it mind, which is bothering me or it is conscious, it is so messed .. I have no answers .. but my quest is on .. so keep checking .. I might have some answers or may be more questions and confusions.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Some Borrowed Ideas
What is Life without challenge ?
What is relationship without passion ?
What is buisness without ambition ?
What is a conversation without thought provocation ?
What is a career without direction ?
What is success without humility ?
What is failure without brain damage ?
What is a sport without team effort ?
What is a man without character ?
What is a women without purity ?
What is a mind without activity ?
What is a death without complete satisfaction !!!
What is relationship without passion ?
What is buisness without ambition ?
What is a conversation without thought provocation ?
What is a career without direction ?
What is success without humility ?
What is failure without brain damage ?
What is a sport without team effort ?
What is a man without character ?
What is a women without purity ?
What is a mind without activity ?
What is a death without complete satisfaction !!!
Just Freezed !!
Semester is almost over and I just realized that within 3 days I will be at home. The thought is freezing in the sense, this is all over my mind now and I cant think beyond it. So, my mind is freezed but my fingers are working.
There are so many things I have planned to do when go home like visit my friends in mumbai, goto pushkar with them then, have some marijuana there, ohh man life will be again rolling. Plus, I have to read some stuff and I have to appear for a test the next day from the day I come back.
I cant wait but to get home and have a real blasting time !!
Over and out then.
There are so many things I have planned to do when go home like visit my friends in mumbai, goto pushkar with them then, have some marijuana there, ohh man life will be again rolling. Plus, I have to read some stuff and I have to appear for a test the next day from the day I come back.
I cant wait but to get home and have a real blasting time !!
Over and out then.
Monday, December 19, 2005
Computer Scientists
"Bunch of people who are socially uncomfortable, decide to spend their lives with computers." - Anonymous.
My first thought is why do people study computer science ? When there are so many interesting things to study like music, litrature, philosophy, ... list is endless.
why to study something which had nothing to do with humans but has been introduced to pose as improving life of people at the cost of who are behind it. I am trying to contemplate why do people are ready to sacrifice their life for this non-human subject.
Just for the sake of money or to focus on something which can keep them away from normal people. I know I want neither of these things, I want to work with regular people who love to socialize rather than some machine loving morons.
I have chosen to write on Computer Science, but the same may be true for basic sciences field like Mathematics, Physics, etc. So, the question remains, that what kind of satisfaction do people get from studying basic sciences. It is no doubt the most demanding fields to study and people who can excell here are arguably intellectually most competent. But, life is fair in the sense, if it gives you intellectual talent, it takes out the socializing element out of you. It might sound funny but this is so true.
I have been to Computer Science socials, there is different kind of fun I had, I was laughing at people's sense of humour. All the jokes you will hear will have Core Computer Science terminology in it, trust me I dont get even a bit of these. When I am among the Computer Science fraternity, I really fear what a pathetic Computer Science graduate student I am. I dont get along with them, dont understand their jokes, errrrr....., I feel so misplaced.
Yaa, but there are good things to it, they make hell loads amount of money. Life is fair, they are paid for their mechanical lives. So, all those guys who want to study Computer Science, just because it fetches more money than any other profession, think twice !!
My first thought is why do people study computer science ? When there are so many interesting things to study like music, litrature, philosophy, ... list is endless.
why to study something which had nothing to do with humans but has been introduced to pose as improving life of people at the cost of who are behind it. I am trying to contemplate why do people are ready to sacrifice their life for this non-human subject.
Just for the sake of money or to focus on something which can keep them away from normal people. I know I want neither of these things, I want to work with regular people who love to socialize rather than some machine loving morons.
I have chosen to write on Computer Science, but the same may be true for basic sciences field like Mathematics, Physics, etc. So, the question remains, that what kind of satisfaction do people get from studying basic sciences. It is no doubt the most demanding fields to study and people who can excell here are arguably intellectually most competent. But, life is fair in the sense, if it gives you intellectual talent, it takes out the socializing element out of you. It might sound funny but this is so true.
I have been to Computer Science socials, there is different kind of fun I had, I was laughing at people's sense of humour. All the jokes you will hear will have Core Computer Science terminology in it, trust me I dont get even a bit of these. When I am among the Computer Science fraternity, I really fear what a pathetic Computer Science graduate student I am. I dont get along with them, dont understand their jokes, errrrr....., I feel so misplaced.
Yaa, but there are good things to it, they make hell loads amount of money. Life is fair, they are paid for their mechanical lives. So, all those guys who want to study Computer Science, just because it fetches more money than any other profession, think twice !!
NonVegetarians Cant be Animal Lovers
just had an argument with some of people, one guy said that he can eat chicken but he wont eat the chicken, he owns.
I: This is contradictory
A: why?
I: hmm ..... (thinking) ... its because either you love animals or not
B reasons: A Canibal would not eat his owns son
I got the point that there is no point in going further.
Buts lets have it here:
I: How would a canibal feel if another canibal ate his son ?
All I mean is it is skewed reasoning if you dont treat everyone equal.
Anyways there are like this lot of ways to explain this but the point is people dont have clarity of thought and this is wot the purpose of this post is.
I: This is contradictory
A: why?
I: hmm ..... (thinking) ... its because either you love animals or not
B reasons: A Canibal would not eat his owns son
I got the point that there is no point in going further.
Buts lets have it here:
I: How would a canibal feel if another canibal ate his son ?
All I mean is it is skewed reasoning if you dont treat everyone equal.
Anyways there are like this lot of ways to explain this but the point is people dont have clarity of thought and this is wot the purpose of this post is.
Immigrants Life
People might accuse me as a sadist, but that is not going to change me, because I am a determistically stubborn man. This article is dedicated to all the immigrants who are ready to put their professional life above personal life. The reason I am writing this article is because I got to know today how people from east asia, when they come to America feel when they are here for a longer period of time. There is nothing new in this article but this is just my way of looking at things.
When anyone is in his 20s, he has the zeal and enthusiasm to change his life if not change the world. This brings many people to this land, land of opportunities as they call it. This is the time when adrenaline is highest and we are ready to leave our country and start a life all over again in a foreign land. And many of them are rich, have big cars, house which none of them would have dreamt with petty salaries they would have got back in their country. The reward is really awesome, american salary is really addictive, no doubts about that.
Now comes the real part, it is not easy to get away with all the money, a price has to be paid for this. And the price has to be paid on the day you enter this country and then each day after that. You are in a foreign land and you know very few people around, you have to start your life all over again. But, mind you things will never be any close to the comforts one enjoys at home. By home, I mean a place where you can be completely relaxed and there is someone always there to pamper you. You loose on this big time. Specially, america is one hell of a cold country, weather is ruthlessly cold and this has gone into the people also. Even the bright sunny days are brutally cold, I really fealt the meaning of this line "Days are bright, but filled with pain" - Jim Morrison. If you are devoid of emotions, you are a winner then, otherwise, read further, I have more in store.
It doesnt end here, you go back home after a long time hoping to get everything back you used to cherish. But now, you dont feel a part of your people, you have been changed by the american society, if not much, but sufficient enough. Now, you dont like socialing as much as your people do. Its a real ironical life. You have gained lot of wealth and lost who knows wot.
But, there are things to cherish, you have american salary now, and I tell you this it is damn addictive. Now, you can go anywhere across the world and it doesnt cost much to you. Plus, being away from home and being just you is not that bad. It has many good things to it too. Its different kind of fun, you get lot of time with yourself and you get more time to think and it improves your clarity of mind.
Anyways, life is never perfect, I see most of people in india longing to come to US, there are people in the other side also but they are less and majority counts. So, immigrants win, natives loose.
Author is an immigrant, so dont expect fairness.
When anyone is in his 20s, he has the zeal and enthusiasm to change his life if not change the world. This brings many people to this land, land of opportunities as they call it. This is the time when adrenaline is highest and we are ready to leave our country and start a life all over again in a foreign land. And many of them are rich, have big cars, house which none of them would have dreamt with petty salaries they would have got back in their country. The reward is really awesome, american salary is really addictive, no doubts about that.
Now comes the real part, it is not easy to get away with all the money, a price has to be paid for this. And the price has to be paid on the day you enter this country and then each day after that. You are in a foreign land and you know very few people around, you have to start your life all over again. But, mind you things will never be any close to the comforts one enjoys at home. By home, I mean a place where you can be completely relaxed and there is someone always there to pamper you. You loose on this big time. Specially, america is one hell of a cold country, weather is ruthlessly cold and this has gone into the people also. Even the bright sunny days are brutally cold, I really fealt the meaning of this line "Days are bright, but filled with pain" - Jim Morrison. If you are devoid of emotions, you are a winner then, otherwise, read further, I have more in store.
It doesnt end here, you go back home after a long time hoping to get everything back you used to cherish. But now, you dont feel a part of your people, you have been changed by the american society, if not much, but sufficient enough. Now, you dont like socialing as much as your people do. Its a real ironical life. You have gained lot of wealth and lost who knows wot.
But, there are things to cherish, you have american salary now, and I tell you this it is damn addictive. Now, you can go anywhere across the world and it doesnt cost much to you. Plus, being away from home and being just you is not that bad. It has many good things to it too. Its different kind of fun, you get lot of time with yourself and you get more time to think and it improves your clarity of mind.
Anyways, life is never perfect, I see most of people in india longing to come to US, there are people in the other side also but they are less and majority counts. So, immigrants win, natives loose.
Author is an immigrant, so dont expect fairness.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
State of Mind
I feel alive today, its a big deal for me. I feel that suddenly enormous amount of energy has been infused in me, and I am flying in the air of my beleief. I want to face the world, now. There is a fresh believe in me, that I can get whatever I want. I can do whatever I want. I dont want to waste it in doing something trivial.
Reason for this fresh flow of energy, may be because I had a good sleep in the noon. Or, I read some inspiring blogs yesterday. One of them is suze's blog. Or may be, the day to meet my people is nearing. Or may be, there is a good chance that one of my best friend will be with me next year. Life without friends can be realised only without them. Or, may be its raining again and it feels really fresh. Or, the hard days of semesters are nearly coming to end. Or may be I am listening to Bob Dylan's free flowing music. Lot of reasons, huh, any soul would be happy, so am I.
I wish this feeling stays for ever. I wish I am always alive. .......
Reason for this fresh flow of energy, may be because I had a good sleep in the noon. Or, I read some inspiring blogs yesterday. One of them is suze's blog. Or may be, the day to meet my people is nearing. Or may be, there is a good chance that one of my best friend will be with me next year. Life without friends can be realised only without them. Or, may be its raining again and it feels really fresh. Or, the hard days of semesters are nearly coming to end. Or may be I am listening to Bob Dylan's free flowing music. Lot of reasons, huh, any soul would be happy, so am I.
I wish this feeling stays for ever. I wish I am always alive. .......
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
My favourite movies (not in the order)
1. Harold and kumar goto the white castle: Overflowing with laughter, also it reminds me of good old days of IIT when we bunch of friends used to have g****.
2. Good Will Hunting: Amazing pholosophy, Eye opener in terms of philosophy of life.
3. Basic Instinct: Even a celibate man would give up after seeing sharon stone in this movie.
4. Satya: One of the most realistic portrayel of underworld gang wars and their true story.
5. Dil Se: One of the most intense love story I have seen.
6. Gandhi: I am a big fan of this guy for his conviction.
7. Forest Gump: Tom Hanks is too good and the subject no one can think about.
8. Black: Amazing acting by Big B (best so far) and co-stars. Sanjay Bhansali's work of life time.
9. Dil Chahta hai: Simply Bindaas.
10. God Father 1: Al Pacino, Marlon Brando, brilliant actors, awesome movie.
2. Good Will Hunting: Amazing pholosophy, Eye opener in terms of philosophy of life.
3. Basic Instinct: Even a celibate man would give up after seeing sharon stone in this movie.
4. Satya: One of the most realistic portrayel of underworld gang wars and their true story.
5. Dil Se: One of the most intense love story I have seen.
6. Gandhi: I am a big fan of this guy for his conviction.
7. Forest Gump: Tom Hanks is too good and the subject no one can think about.
8. Black: Amazing acting by Big B (best so far) and co-stars. Sanjay Bhansali's work of life time.
9. Dil Chahta hai: Simply Bindaas.
10. God Father 1: Al Pacino, Marlon Brando, brilliant actors, awesome movie.
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If you find any article pain in ass to read, then write it, if you find any idea faulty, condemn it but just write something. No praises are welcome, I know how good I am but what I dont know are my faults, so only criticism is welcome.
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